A Slow and Gentle Push!

A few weeks ago in Sunday school Maddy was involved in a conversation regarding God and answering prayers. She argued, to her credit, that God answered all prayers, Yes, No or maybe!

The question was a yes or no question. It asked did God answer the prayers of the church when Herod had James, brother of John, put to death?

Maddy said, "yes" it just wasn't what the church wanted as an answer..

Well the Sunday school teacher came to me and wanted me to review this answer with her. As we all know it can be unnerving as they get up in age and start having their own take on theology and then repeating it in Sunday school.

For the life of me I could not find the error in her reasoning. Logically I knew God answers all prayer. I have tumbled it around in my head, I asked her teacher if he thought the answer was wrong? To which he just smiled and said she was right. Yet there has been an air of expectancy around what I needed to discuss with her.

Well I had put it out of my mind for the last two weeks, and I woke from a dead sleep with an epiphany! Maddy wasn't wrong, I needed to hear this not logically but spiritually. I have had a difficult time since this fall reconnecting spiritually. I am sure some of it is from anger at my prayers not being answered the way I wanted it. I was going through the motions at church, at home but not really feeling. Keeping everyone at arms length and avoiding too much interaction from the church body. I mentally still want to not be there but am feeling the pull spiritually calling me back.

So my prayers were not unanswered, just answered in a way I didn't want. So do I choose as a toddler to throw my fit? All along not seeing the bigger picture? It is much easier to talk theology than to have to walk in it.